Experience submitted by Maria V.

Experience submitted by Maria V.

I remember once during a concentration practice, falling slightly asleep and seeing a dream about an ego that was afflicting my mind continuously then, related to a cooperation problem I had with a colleague at my work at that time.

The dream was very alive, taking place at my work where I was doing several duties, and a very small cartoon-like person was continuously following me, jumping on my shoulder and speaking in my ear, not leaving me alone at all. It was very, very annoying.

Suddenly I couldn’t stand it anymore, and turned towards it, and flicked it far away with my two fingers.

Automatically I felt relieved, and woke up lightly. I realized then that I had been dreaming, and wondered how that could have happened, because I thought that I had been awake all this time in the room, trying to concentrate, during the whole practice.

I remained still recalling the details of the dream, looking carefully in it and I realized that this cartoon-like person was the ego that had been afflicting my mind continuously then.

I remember sensing how it was very much alive and familiar to me. I continued looking into the dream, and I understood better how this ego had been besieging me.

Seeing this, automatically the problem of cooperation I had with my co-worker seemed funny and not so big anymore, as opposed to how I felt before I had this dream, where these thoughts seemed difficult to get detached from.

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After that I remember the thoughts of my colleague’s behavior stopped besieging my mind as it couldn’t affect me like it did before because the ego in me that was feeding off my annoyance was weakened by the understanding I gained through this dream which helped me to observe it.