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Using Guidance in my Dreams to Learn about my Egos

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Experience submitted by Steve F

I was looking into an ego one time and I was amazed to see how dreams would teach me during the night time about how I was going with my work on this ego during the day, and how interrelated my night and day experiences were and also how accurate and detailed the symbolic dream world can be.

Looking into this particular ego, I was trying to observe it during the day and also I was learning about the ego by doing a retrospection and analysis of the ego practices at night. Through these practices, which Belsebuub talks extensively about in his books, I started to gain an understanding of  how the ego would manifest and appear within me whilst going about my daily activities.

From a Rough Start that Felt like Looking into a Pea Soup..

At the beginning I really didn’t know how to tackle the ego that I chose to work on as all I could feel when I looked within was a buzzing energy that didn’t seem to have a particular single aspect, thought or emotion to it. The energy within just seemed to appear in the centers and I couldn’t make heads or tails out of it, I couldn’t identify or see it clearly.

This reminds me of Belsebuub’s talk on one of his videos were he describes starting out with looking within as trying to see through pea soup!

I analyzed this energy and asked for its removal and from there on I started to go on a daily journey of looking at different aspects of this ego. Each night interesting dreams showed me new aspects of the ego that would manifest the next day which I then could see within and work upon during the day because the dream showed me what the ego acted like in some instances.

The dreams showed me aspects of the ego where sometimes I would see a person for example that said something to me, sometimes repeatedly. Other times I knew the person that I met in the dream (and sometimes I didn’t know the person I saw in the dream) but they all acted in some peculiar way or said something that would then give me a guide on what to look for during the next day.

I was amazed to see in my next day’s activities that very particular type of behavior which I then understood was the manifestation of that ego in my dream. From this I started to understand the ego because it was shown to me  in my previous nights dreams.

To Holding onto a Thread of Knowledge and Dream Guidance

This was amazing from not knowing where to start only a couple of days before but through the effort of trying and doing the right practices I had a lead on this ego which I could begin see within myself. What would I do without the divine showing me a direction? I would have been lost.

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Each day I seemed to act differently when doing work activities and working with people, I noticed how irradiated the ego got, how judgmental the ego was in its thinking and I started to see what was within me.

I got a taste of what the work was like and it was so different to the way I logically thought it would be, it seemed so natural!

It was really a living teaching that brought a new perception of life that made it interesting to go to work, do activities, relate and work with other people because through dreams and the guidance within them I could see what I had to work on in my daily life’s activities.

It wasn’t like I was this super aware person either, I was simply starting from where I was and tried!

Arising Obstacles and Receiving Further Guidance in my Dreams

As I worked on the ego other dream symbols started to arise which showed my attitude to the spiritual work I had just started.

I didn’t think I was doing anything really substantial but my dreams showed me that although small, I had started a work upon an ego but also that I was starting to treat the work in a certain way that showed a certain attitude which was starting to appear that wasn’t very helpful to the work; and through my dreams and the symbolism within it I could see that I had a lack of care towards the spiritual within me.

I got to a certain point where my car started to appear symbolically in my dreams and I remember that the way I was driving the car in the dream was meaningful.

The thing that I remember the most was that I had learned something about the spiritual work in trying to drive that car, and that was the car either goes forwards or backwards and it doesn’t have any brakes. For me this showed me that with egos we either work on them or we don’t, we either move forwards or move backwards but there is never any ‘staying still’ within the work.

Cars have shown up in my dreams many times and the way that I’m driving the car shows me how I’m going with the work that I’m doing during the day.

How this Experience Changed my Mindset on Advancing Spiritually

I got a lot out of this experience and it’s absolutely amazing to see the dream guidance clearly giving information through the symbolic dream world to help direct my focus onto what was needed during the day to advance spiritually.

To see the physical reality in daily life of the inner teachings of the being which gave me such a strong impression of the divine influence in life that guides me, teaches me and shows me the way forward in the seemingly impossible world of the egos.

I know now it’s absolutely possible to tap into this knowledge today and gain my own understanding for myself, and as Belsebuub says to learn from the book of life in this video:

And it might not happen the way I think it will happen but now it’s clear to me that if I try I will get a result because for years I thought that the work took some special awareness that I didn’t quite have or that I couldn’t do the practices well etc, etc..

Through this experience, I found to my amazement that all I had to do was to start from right where I was at the time, even though I wasn’t that ‘super amazing concentrated awareness machine‘ that I thought that I needed to be.

I realized that I was deceiving myself about the work and learned how natural and alive the work actually was which really was a relief from the mindset which I had created around the inner work and what I thought I needed to do to make the work attainable to do.

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  • Great account Steve, thanks for taking the time to share it, there’s a lot of good insights in your story which I found very inspiring and enjoyable to read.
    You’ve certainly made a lot of efforts with your ego and it really sounds like you got a lot of Divine help to gain good grounds.

    Having known you for some time now, it was particularly nice to read of your new understanding to push forward, and your write up shows a lot of strength and courage to have a good go. Hopefully your new approach continues to show you the way to remove those monsters which cause so much harm.

    I wish you lots of strength and success with your inner work from here on.

  • Hey Richie, how are you! I think so too because the meaning of the phrase “its a living teaching” is really accurate and comes to life when we can tap into that flow and interaction of guidance! very special.

  • Hey Steve thanks for your account it sounds like your efforts were really starting to pay off, it can be very rewarding when you start to see information manifesting in your dreams and answers to internal states your working on in the day, you start to see the work come alive

  • Hi Pavlin, Yeah I get confused too a lot of the time but good work on uncovering that ego, it must of been really good to see it there after uncovering it with your efforts! It shows how accurate the dream guidance is even though we may not understand it at first.

  • Thanks Steve for this great description of how to work alongside our divine parents to bring the inner work into our daily life – to make it ‘alive’ – and how it starts here, where we are, with efforts made today, with seeing our internal landscape and addressing its reality.

    For me, it’s become very apparent that I have to be flexible and open to guidance, but at the same time firm in my focus to overcome a defect. Otherwise it can kind of go into remission and I can become lazy in my observation of it only to be confronted with something that’s subtly grown over time rather than weakened. Then I can sometimes be ‘shouted at’ in a dream, to realise I had totally lost attention in daily life.

    When I start to see the efforts I make in self obervation and to change materialise ‘over there’, it’s a great feeling. Likewise when I am able to translate and act upon guidance from ‘over there’. It’s amazing how the two worlds interpenetrate and how, even when living a ‘normal’ life from the outside, we can be immersed in an internal learning that goes way beyond the physical.

    Thanks also for the reminder of how many ways the minds can subtly curtail our spiritual efforts through ideas, expectation and restrictions we put on ourselves.

    • Hi Ella, some really good points there! it’s like we have to be hard on the ego but open to how the guidance is given to us so we can even begin to work on it, because if we’re not open to how the guidance is provided, taught, explained or shown we simply miss the understanding on how to tackle the ego. It’s funny in some ways, many times I haven’t understood their teaching but I’ve got to be open to it, because if I’m not open to it how can I understand what they are showing me? the mind seems to me to be very ignorant is some ways, not to mention the egos!

  • Hi Steve, thank you for sharing this experience. It was inspiring to see how you were able to recognise the guidance in your dreams and apply it in your every day life. Sometimes when I see something in a dream that is clearly showing me a negative behaviour I feel confused, as I don’t always see that behaviour in my daily life. Sometimes I know it’s there, but I don’t see it’s manifestations exactly and thus can’t work on it.

    Like, a few days ago I had a dream and it was obviously showing me an ego. When I woke up I remembered the advice that Belsebuub gives, that if you see an ego in a dream, then that’s the most urgent thing to work upon. But I was confused because it didn’t seem like that ego was going to manifest, the circumstances for it simply couldn’t exist during that day. I thought I would try to observe within as best as I could that day. At a point I was taking a quiet moment, just sitting in a chair and I became aware of my mind – some random thoughts. I prayed for them to be cleared away and they were, but then I saw thoughts related to the ego I was shown in my dream! It was like pulling a curtain to discover a surprising sight.

    It seemed like those thoughts were lurking in a bit deeper level beneath my current awareness state and that dream showed me that I should work on my perception to be able to discover one step deeper.

    When it’s possible to learn from dreams and every day life, this work can become something very meaningful and magical in a down-to-earth way 🙂 , as you say like a ‘living teaching’.

    • Thanks for sharing that comment, Pavlin. Your description of how you discovered one of those hidden egos that had been shown in your dreams was very helpful!

      I have been deeply puzzled sometimes when I couldn’t find the ego that manifested in my dreams in daily life. I feel I have something new to investigate 🙂

  • Hi Steve, what a wonderful blessing of divine help you received. It is very inspiring to read your experiences and how the divine has helped guide you through the dream world.

    I personally am so grateful to receive any help from the divine, especially to be helped see an ego from a new perspective.

    Whenever i am struggling with the will to keep moving forward, i go back to this quote from Judas in ‘The flight of the feathered serpent.’ A book that Belsebuub recommends.

    “Watch and Pray” was the heritage left by Christ for the courageous.

    Watch is to do everything awakened, pray is a ardent yearning to be one with the Being.

    However, he who prays and watches, even though they do it in an imperfect way, will receive generous help and he will learn to receive generously as well….

    The help is in the here and it is now.

    • Hi Chris, how are you! Your comment is really interesting because when I think about it, the learning was sort of like that because I started from where I was at and could only try to be aware in the best I could and so obvisously my awareness wasn’t perfect (and what’s perfect anyway when the awareness increases with the inner work someone does anyway) but the dream guidance really did help me to see what I needed to see. umm…. maybe these people writing these books know what there talking about 🙂

  • What I thought when reading your account Steve is just how nice of the spiritual forces it was to give you such generous guidance to help you along.

    I also really like the point of starting where we are now. And it seems that realisation you got gave you a lot of freedom from detrimental mindsets and to start doing things afresh, which is great. It’s definitely easy to get stuck on so many things.

    • Hi Karim, yeah I don’t know how I would of understood the ego with out that dream guidance. It helped to break a mindset which I was pretty stuck on which I didn’t really notice but was in the back of the mind. So it has helped but still got so much more to look at really.

  • Thanks for these insights, Steve. They are reflecting a very good share of all kind of preoccupations and attitudes towards our inner effort.

    The symbol of the car is something I can relate too into my dreams. Big one, or small one, with breaks or not, passing obstacles or being stuck, it always mirrors, on the one hand, our real inner state but on the other, it is such a big help to see, work and correct all these kinds of barriers.

    I have also realized that if we do the work on the meditation of some aspects of ego regularly, then there is a flow to our work on ego too and a kind of continuous guidance through our dreams, bringing us more ”material” to work upon on the physical by their usefulness.

    • Hi Maia, I found the same thing where anaylsis of an ego seems to bring on more meaningful dreams which focuses on the ego your looking at in a really helpful way!

  • Hi Aleksandr, how are you!
    I found that it’s like the egos are trying to beat you even before you try sometimes and those types of ideas and mindsets that “it can’t be done” or thinking that a practice has be at a “certain level” is a big trap. The mind is a very tricky thing and the mind and egos can make the awareness seem harder than it is sometimes.

  • Thank you, Steve, for this inspirational account of just doing the work, and not getting caught up in the intellectual ideas of what we have to be like in order to do the work.

    There were a number of points you made that really stood out to me, perhaps one that stood with me the most was how you wrote, “It was really a living teaching that brought a new perception of life.”

    The notion of doing this work and there being a “living teaching” is so profound. And so totally true when we actually do it 🙂

    • Hi Mike, yeah things seem to come alive and the work is really recognizable, it seems very evident and apparent, you can see it in life! Its just hard to keep it going!

      • So true… and I guess that’s a whole other element of the inner work to investigate: how to overcome entropy and keep it going, no matter what…

      • I agree Mike, that’s such an important thing to learn how these things work. How do we get the work going? What if we’re down and in entropy, how to get out? I also felt today that we actively need to keep investigating this and that the thing that worked yesterday might not work today. For me I’m going to switch some patterns and do some other practices during my day, which I’ll put in a good dedicated effort, in order not to get stagnant.

      • I have to agree, even if it’s a bit scary to realize, “… the thing that worked yesterday might not work today.”

        Indeed, if we just repeat the same old, same old, we do stagnate.

        It’s subtle, I guess, because sometimes we can have inspiring results with a practice or approach to the work and want to continue. But maybe due to the excitement of our recent results, we lose sight of the fact our current progress is plateauing and in need of change… At least I find this to be true for me, many times.

        I like the idea of switching up patterns. Maybe I should use that as a strategy when I next feel like I’m plateauing in my work.

  • Thanks Steve for the experience. I really appreciate what you said towards the end, that all you had to do was to start from right where you were at the time. I share a lot of these deceptive ideas, and I can see that through thinking that ‘I am not aware enough’ or ‘I am not good enough’ or ‘I am not doing enough’ I am giving myself excuses to not try.

    • I’ve also had/have my fair share of such ideas. I mean often I am not doing well enough and know it, but what happens from there is another thing and certain mindsets and ego’s can take advantage of us, get us down and keep us there, which is not useful to doing something about it all.

      It also made me think about ‘Awakening.’ I’ve got an image of it in my mind of this impossible out-there thing. But it’s not about trying to reach that non existent image, it’s about starting it in our own life.

  • Hey Steve,thanks for sharing it really is amazing what is available to us spiritually the help and guidance
    to give a clear understanding of what we are dealing with, is nothing short of remarkable.

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